Many of you know the struggle we’ve had with
infertility the last 3 years, it’s been a whirlwind of emotions, you never
expect to be the “one” who goes through it. Through the many testing,
prodding’s, charting, appointments, procedures, drugs and so on, the Lord has
always brought us through. I know that God is using this in our lives to
strengthen our marriage, to build our character, and draw us closer to him. A
verse that I meditate on often “Blessed is he who trusts in the Lord, and whose
hope is in the Lord”. Jeremiah 17 V7
To get through those hard, dark, disheartening days
where I felt so low and useless this was the verse that I clung to. That I must
trust in him, his plans and his ways for they are far better then I could ever
imagine. Traveling down the road of infertility is not one you choose, but one
that God allows. A wise friend once told me, “The Lord finds you worthy to go through this”. Hearing that
statement was a major reality check of what I am living this life for, not for
me and my wants, but for the Lord and his plans.
In the end Matt and I know that we want to be
parents, the beautiful thing is that there are various ways that this can
happen. We came to a standstill in the medical world, do we do injections, or
do we do in vetro fertilization? The cost to the “chance” was a big
factor---spend thousands of dollars on something that there is no guarantee in
the end you will have a baby, this left us without a feeling peace. I also was struggling with the
medications, hormones, side effects, and the unknown of the long-term effect
this would have on my body. With much prayer I had to confess to my husband
that throughout our process of wanting to conceive a child, Adoption has always been around me. We had
always talked about adopting, you know “someday after we have a few of our
own”. That someday is now for us. We could not be more happy to share that we
are in the process of a Domestic Adoption. We do understand the cost is quite
large, we trust that the Lord is going to provide for us, however he plans to
do so. We have peace that in the end of this process no matter the cost, we
will have a baby, what a gift that will be.
Thank you for following along, we hope you will join
us as we have begun our journey in praying for us, provision of money, and our
future baby.
Many blessings to you,
Emily
I'm so happy for you and Matt! You will both be wonderful parents! Lots of work to get through the process, but just keep your eyes on the "prize"!! Love you!
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