Labor Pains

Labor Pains 

We're currently in the phase in the Adoption process that they call "paper pregnant" meaning we've done all we can do and now we wait while potential birth parents choose to look through our profile book and hope they move forward with us to interview. As I've said in previous posts you will never know how long your "pregnancy" will last, it could be extremely long like a elephant or extremely quick like a opossum. Whichever the case they both come with Labor Pains.... And everyone labor is different. From long hours of laboring, to short and fast, physically- emotionally and mentally exhausting. Regardless the timing  it's hard work and can be extremely painful.... And we don't get epidurals. Labor pains can last several months to years, there are many ups and downs with Adoption, you have to do what you can do to keep on going, loving and focusing on your family as the Lord is preparing to grow you all. Adoption process is just as this...we're entering the Labor Pains as I call it. 

I check my email several times a day, every time I get a new email I'm anticipating it to be our case worker giving us a "profile" of a birth mother and father seeing if we want our book to be shown. Since mid May we've had our book shown several times, we are never the only ones to show our books there are several other families who are right where we are, hoping and praying to add to their families. It's easy to read through a profile and think "yes they sound so wonderful I hope they choose us!" But not too long after to know they've chosen another family or to parent themselves. Once you've been looked at by a birth parent and you've been asked to meet or so a interview it's such an amazing feeling, yet you have to protect your heart.... No matter how true or right it may seem, in the end they have to final decision and as we have experienced before no decision is final until paperwork is sighed. Which I fully understand--- it's just what makes is that much harder and giving it to God is all we can do. This is where it's hard, for me the planner-organizer- type A- girl loves to know what's ahead and be prepared. This is where the Lord is continuing to stretch me---with my faith in Him, after all he is building our family and thus far he's far exceeded my desires for our first born.

 I have to remember the lord will grow our family in His timing and he will allow us to draw closer to Him throughout our journey.

Thank you for continuing to support, encourage and pray for our family and future baby Imlach.